Archive for July 2009
AFTERNOON NAP.
Posted July 28, 2009
on:tossed a coin.
and fate decided tt i shld skip workshop today.
it’s also fate tt i’ve to do the work on my own for workshop.
or else i’ll make things difficult for my partner/grp member when i keep missing from sch.
alright bullshit.
it’s jus weird luck tt it was heads when the coin was tossed.
so weiling skipped sch with a few others.
went home and rot, took a 2hrs nap which i hadn’t had for a nong nong time.
my pencil case went missing for no apparent reason.
dun rmb leaving in sch or whatsoever.
it’s like the N-th item tt i lost since yr 1. =/
spent another $26 for new pens, pencils, rulers, blah blah.
it’s so hard to remain as frens.
anw. thanks thanks thanks.
ARE YOU WELL?
Posted July 27, 2009
on:u noe.
some pple jus wanna noe wat happened.
but they’re not genuinely concerned.
it’s a feeling i get when i see the look on their faces.
so please.
let me off. enough is enough.
i really dun wan to talk abt it.
if i wan to tell u everything. i will.
been walking around shopping malls alone.
every i go, there’s pple.
it’s like everybody is acc me shopping.
staying home is such a chore now.
being alone makes me feel like crying.
tinking of stuff tt happened.
weiling hates this feeling.
school is good.
i hav classmates to laugh with.
talk abt other things tt divert my attention.
i can laugh loudly, happily.
lastly thanks to everybody.
who showed their concern and whatever.
i noe i nd to b strong.
finding a reason to love life again.
HEARTACHES.
Posted July 24, 2009
on:hw i wished this time round.
the heartache is caused by jf.
at least i had gotten used to it.
at least i noe it would heal someday.
at least i had anticipated the heartache to come.
but no.
this came unexpectedly.
and it’s a scar tt will stay for life.
i’ve never been someone to say life sucks.
yes i get angry wif life, wondering y do things happen.
but i’ve never thought it sucked.
not even when grandpa is gone.
not even when i failed tp for 3 times.
not even when we were caught by tp.
not this time round.
i’ve a fucked up life.
of cos not jus me alone.
there’s nothing i can do for them.
helpless yet useless at the same time.
terrible feeling i cant get out.
and i cannot imagine hw terrible they feel when im alr feeling this way.
it must b more agonising for them isnt it.
seriously. FUCK GOD.
i dun believe things happen for a reason now?
u’re jus a pathetic fool who is INVINSIBLE, with POWERS to take away pple we love, and pretend to LOVE us wif all ur heart.
im not pin-pointing to any religions here.
u noe. jus whoever is up there. FUCK YOU.
the god i believed in. the god tt i prayed to.
i’ve cried so much tt im so angry wif myself.
i really dont understand y.
it’s like a repeat of history.
it happened before. and it’s happening again.
not exactly the same, not exactly different.
FUCK THE LIFE MY FAMILY HAS.
18dec1995,14may2009,22july2009.
A WALK TO REMEMBER
Posted July 9, 2009
on:as extracted from a walk to remember, the novel.
“You knew, from the first day in Miss Garber’s class that i was going to do the play, didn’t you? When you looked at me and smiled?”
She nodded, “Yes.”
“And when i asked you to the homecoming dance, you made me promise that i wouldn’t fall in love, but you knew that i was going to, didn’t you?”
She had a mischievous gleam in her eye. “Yes.”
“How did you know?”
She shrugged without answering, and we sat together for a few moments, watching the rain as it blew against the windows.
“When I told you that I prayed for you,” she finally said to me, “what did you think I was talking about?”
My favourite part of the novel.
It’s seriously a must-read~ =)